10:46 PM 20090221
I'm 20 years old today and it feels so surreal celebrating my birthday so far away from family and friends...
Let's just put it as a very "mild" birthday celebration involving my fellow colleagues at a club (or two..)
It's been 3 months since I've been here and all these 3 months have been very ****ing turbulent for me.
Early this month, I had no choice but to leave someone's apartment after moving in with her for a month.
Let's just put it as she's more interested in my wallet than anything else...
It was totally a wtf moment packing my stuff and leaving the apartment at 3 in the morning and leaving her asleep...
Sianz...
All I want is life as it was:
Weekends,
Family..
All those things which have been taken away from me eversince last April...
I can't wait to be a civilian again...
You guys back home are so lucky...
You guys will never have to:
1. know how sucky it is to be working on a beautiful saturday/sunday
2. have lost touch with the concept of weekends
3. look up at the night sky and wonder if your family/friends are looking up too, thinking of you
4. walk ALONE, in a foreign land, so far away...
After reading up on the grades requirements for local uni, I seriously feel even more fucked up.
What has my country become???
My average grades aren't good enough for my country...
I feel betrayed...
I feel fucked up...
I feel as if I'm twenty in a foreign land, with no home to go to anymore...