9:35 AM 20080929
Eid'Ul Fitri is approaching soon and this year's Ramadhan has been the most testing one in my life so far..
Being in uniform and having to fast at the same time is no mean feat. I've fell prey to temptation more than once this Ramadhan and it's partly due to the environment that I'm fasting in. Because all that's important for an NSF is his ORD date, nothing else matters really..
To date, I'll haf up to 5 weeks left before Departure and eventhough I know that I'll feel homesick, I have to be strong and constantly remind myself how horrible I felt when I did my guard duty at BMT and weekend duty at BMC. I kept asking myself what was I doing back then and it was frustrating.
At least in Thailand I'll have the following to look forward to:
1. Having the experience of being independent overseas
2. Being able to ORD with an even wider smile on my face for very obvious reasons.. hehe
3. Looking forward to next year's raya and at the same time being able to contribute smth to my family and friends.
4. Having been able to see this, and much much more from another country while at the same time serving NS..

And the list goes on...
As much as I can't wait to go there, a nagging feeling's present in my head which wants me to just stay home.
May Allah guide me safely there and back again.. That's all I need to silence that weird feeling in my head..
Eid'Ul Fitri this year will be a joyous one for almost everyone else, but it'll be abit melancholic for me, as I wanna get a good look at everyone; family, friends, before I go..