6:07 AM 20080618
So far I've tried:
1. Hyperventilating for 1 min then holding my breath
2. Smoking
3. Using the vicks inhaler
4. Digging shell scrape with SBO during a damn hot, stuffy noon
5. Doing 120 jumping jacks at 1 go (becoz nvr put girl pic on locker)
and so far, all those methods will get me "high".
And yes, I smokeD.. that's smoke with a D.
Simply after seeing that thing during my guard duty about a mth ago, and having to tolerate a roaming wild boar whilst sleeping "cow-boy" style (i.e. in the open, with earth/dirt on my back), I couldn't help it but had to take a few puffs to get me high/drowsy enough to sleep...
I've stopped since..
So.. Ahem.. Let me start on a clearer/cleaner note..
My
forced block leave started over a week ago and so far, I've got these done:
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2.
3.
...
Simply, nothing.. Lolz
Besides going out and "burning" money, I've spent my time in Limbo (as YS would say)..
Fking sian waiting for the end of your leave just so that you know where you'll end up and *hopefully* having some
sense of security of your vocation so that you can enjoy the leave properly.
Like why the fk can't they tell me my posting first so at least I can spend the rest of my block leave contemplating suicide.. Lolz
Haiz...
Before going out today, I had this weird fk-ed up call from someone claiming to be from SR.
The lady said smth along the lines of a common survey (i.e. Uni applications, its results) which I knew was the norm.. until she started telling me why most SRJCians with my kind of grades couldn't get in: JC Reputation.
I was like wtf kind of reasoning was that?!?!?
And there began half an hour worth of reasoning about the biasness given to the top JCs and how we're left to get the scraps...
Lady, you must be a damn good orator coz you'd explained it to me to the point of
PLAUSIBILITY...
But after giving it some thought, why the fk would it bother me?!?!?
I still got to wait till
240410 and besides, I've already made up my mind over a year ago..
Elitism is smth I'm common with here and I know that if I want to make it to a local U, I haf to be the top, which due to the events of last year, I knew I was at the bottom.
So, these days are spent wasting away, trying out new "things" and trying to see this world from the other side..
So far, I'm enjoying it...
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